I have depression

I have depression

I still haven’t come to peace with that

I want, need, to be awesome, active, all over the place 24/7, too much, chaos maelstrom

I’m not

Confidence is shit

Self esteem is terrible

I’m looking left and right for answers about my mental health

ADHD, borderline syndrome, anything else.

But depression is one of those things

And it’s like it’s killing me, mentally

Everyday a bit “less”

Less energy

Less focus

Less myself

Step by step, less and less

Sinking slowly

I want out

But I need to admit it

I have depression

And that shit eats you